I didn't want to write this but since I can't shake off this horrible ominous feeling and since I can't sleep (I used to think my sleeping habits were bad.... Generally they have gotten worse. I am three parts caffeine and one part pure awesome.) I'm gonna write some things in hopes I go to sleep well and happy.

09 was basically an insane year, so many things changed & happened. Events I will always remember - teaching, G's birthday, my birthday, results, posting, camp(s), KR, university, friends, friends, friends, friends.

I learned a new language (I spent my time conjuring up insulting sentences/generally hilarious ones that had nothing to do with anything and certainly didn't help in my exams. Besides, deine mutter ist so fett dass sie ihre klamotten auf der straße bügelt.) I didn't do particularly well in school (but when have I ever?) and I laid down on a roof to look up at the sky for four hours to see a meteor shower. I cried the hardest in my life during a particular period where I felt so helpless and guilty and lost. I laughed so ridiculously hard on so many occasions and every single time I remember thinking how good it was to be alive. This year I healed a little more. Fell on my ass and got right back up again. Rolled with life's punches. Believed.

I hope 2010 will be just as, if not more, amazing than the last. I grew so much as a person, but I guess the year warranted that. In three months I turn 20. Happy new year everybody. May your lives be blessed and beautiful. We live and we learn and we love x